I feel extremely blessed. I am overwhelmed with what God has given me. Especially when I think of my wonderful husband. My daughter. Homeschooling. and so much more.
But I am also struggling. I MISS my extended family (and some super close friends) so much. I ache thinking about the distance between us. I want to be in Kentucky and see my dad's smile and feel his embrace. I want to give my mom a hug and enjoy her presence. I just want to be with them so bad.
If I could just hop in my van and drive over and visit them....
It's not that it has been a super long time since I've spent time with them (4 months ago) and Rose and I are going back in 9 days and spending two weeks there.
But I can Feel the distance. A couple thousand miles is long way.
I cry at the drop of a hat.
Rose misses her family and friends so deeply as well.
I don't mean to be mopey. I do realize my many many blessings.
But it is still a true hurt that I feel.
I realized that me just 'deciding' to think of the positives isn't going to make it go away....or relying on my fabulous husband to take the sad feelings away. ...It is setting my eyes on Jesus that will get me through.
I need Jesus.




